Still waters run deep

They're doing a "get to know you" game at work this week, so last week they compiled 3 or 4 interesting facts each about the new people (myself included). My coworkers have to figure out which facts go with which people. I guess I'm okay with this game, it's just that I usually don't volunteer information about myself. I'm realizing that very few people know all about me, and most people only know a few limited things. A few people have labeled me "secretly cool" after they got to know me a little. Thanks? I'm not exactly sure how I feel about that.

On the one hand, I am a private person and I like it that way. Like...I already know enough about me, anyway, let's talk about you. Most people happily oblige because they enjoy talking about themselves. I honestly love to listen to them most of the time, too, so it works out rather well. I also think, on some level, that talking about myself to people that didn't ask me to tell them is unnecessarily flaunting my...uh, "secret coolness?" Ha. I just don't feel like I'm out to prove anything to anyone but myself, usually. If someone chooses to see beyond my quiet exterior, great, but if not, it doesn't bother me too much. Why show all your cards at once when you think you've got a pretty good hand, right? Eh, I don't know. That's a possibility. Plus, exposing myself makes me more vulnerable to attack, I suppose.

On the other hand, I'm not actively trying to hide myself, either. I do want people to know me as well as I seem to know them. Maybe getting to know them just doesn't take as much effort. I mean, in a way, I have been studying people my whole life, so by now I'm pretty good at...well, seeing through them, basically. I honestly believe that phony people pick up on that somehow, because they tend to keep their distance from me. (Yes, you are all contributing to my human data experiments. Mwahahaaa.)

I don't know if this makes sense to anyone but me. I guess what I'm saying is, I don't expect that many people to know that much about me, but it's cool if they want to find out. I'm not going to force it in any way, shape, or form, though. I prefer to be somewhat of a diamond in the rough, anyway (come to think of it, I once got a silly "diamond in the rough" award on dance team). Sometimes I even surprise myself.